When I was young, my mother was afraid that if I ever went to the library by myself, I'd end up in the witchcraft section. It gives me a chuckle now. One of my identities, hopefully a shoe that no longer fits, is of the "good girl." I didn't go to the witchcraft section of the library. I've spent a long time unlearning the "good girl."
I didn't grow up in a witchcraft lineage, and I've always been drawn to it. I was a girl in a small town in Ohio--a girl whose first memory was being visited by her grandmother the morning after she passed away. In the years since, I've visited the witchcraft section often (133.4: Witchcraft - Sorcery; try it!), and I've built my own witchy library - from Starhawk's The Spiral Dance to Plotkin's Nature and the Human Soul (perhaps not traditionally a witchy text). And don't forget all the wonderful witchy fiction out there. I am an adult unashamed of my love for the teen fiction section.
I love transformation. I love re-inventing myself. As a kid, I re-arranged my bedroom at least 5 times a year. In my twenties, I would re-vamp my art studio any time I got stuck on a painting or drawing. My thirties were a decade of transforming my inner landscape through ceremony, meditation, and a string of romantic choices that taught me how to be in partnership. My forties are about discovering what scares me and doing it anyway.
I like telling stories and I try not to believe in them too much. I certainly try not to believe in the stories I have about myself. My favorite moments are where I surprise myself. And moments of connection with my partner, my step-kids, my community, the people I pray with, my clients, my students. And most importantly, moments of connection with the Holy, unexpectedly or in ritual and ceremony.
Two forms of connection that have been enormously helpful to me in my artistic and teaching practices have been the tarot reading and the art + sex ritual. When I decided to step in and own my role as the art + sex witch, I turned to these daily practices, and started to offer them to others. These practices are what I have to offer you, dear reader.